With each day that passes, I feel as if I am able to let more of life in.
Perhaps it’s a conscious letting go or a deliberate slowing down that is allowing me to feel into greater levels of joy. Whatever the case, it leaves me with a keen recognition that “future Kate” will be wiser and even more joyful. It makes me want to get ahead of myself, cling to the impending and generate excuses for “current Kate”. It leaves me withering in the face of my many muses; they have ‘something’ I don’t have yet. But one day in the future… I just might.
Today as I was walking Koda, the clacking of the tall naked trees got my attention. I stopped in their presence, looked up and closed my eyes. Their vertical life force spoke directly to mine. A warm strength coursed down my spine and brought with it an ancient understanding into the non-linearity of life. I was reassured that this moment is all that exists. I already have that ‘something’ that tomorrow, next year and 5 years might bring.
It’s all right here, in this moment; everything I am looking for.